October 4, 2017 · Today is a very hard day. I've had my Grandsons the last few days which I absolutely love every second with them. They are my heart for sure! The oldest one is my daughter's son so having him sometimes can be emotional because I think of him growing up without his Mom and it just breaks my heart. On the other hand I'm also thankful that he will not grow up seeing his Mom in a bad way which could have been very damaging to him.
Last night as I was putting my youngest grandson to sleep and rubbing his forehead in a downward motion with my finger. As I'm doing this I start thinking how 25 years ago I was doing this same thing with my baby girl. In that moment I so wished I could go back in time and do it again.
I miss my beautiful girl so very much words can just never explain the pain I feel daily. Although I am Thankful for the 24 years I had with her and the beautiful Grandson she Blessed me, sometimes I wish for just one more moment with her.
Cherish those you love even when your mad at them. Tomorrow is never promised.
xoxo Her Mom!